Having a bikini isn't something that you can just cross your fingers and hope for. A) your born with a tooth pick figure B) you have an eating disorder and no self esteem or C) you work your butt off to achieve so...that's how i'm going to go about it. i dont want to be skinny so a by passer can count my ribs, i dont want to turn side ways and for everyone to wonder where i've gone, i don't want to model for seafolly, i just want to feel confident in a bikini. So when do i know i've achieved this..for a guy say..id be alot easier, the answer would simply be when you feel confident. As for girls or myself as such its a little more complex, i used to weigh 74kgs and when i was at that weight all i wanted to be was 65kgs, i thought if i was that weight id be so confident.."id truly love my body" well now i am 65kgs and i'm not anymore confident as i was then in fact i obsess more then ever over food, i cant stand my body, i wont even let my bf touch my stomach and i find clothes shopping a living nightmare.
I guess i could take all this information and think to myself...even if i get really thin i'll still see myself in the same 'fat' light as such. so i have a new plan...
I am still going to reach under under 60kgs but.....at the same time im on a quest to selvage or find the ticket that is to love my body.
So anyway with that i had quite and alright day..
I bought a bikini! yay and ahhhh at the same time, because theres still a month till christmas im going to use it as a tool of motivation, and i will get into that bikini and will be happy :)
i went to the gym today for 2hrs and went on the bike, cross trainer and rower and i burnt about 500 cals, i also did weights so i dont know how much i burnt off doing that? hmm it should of been good.
Todays intake:
-berries for breakie
-two bananas
-teriyaki chicken on rice
-crakers and hummas x5 as a snack
-Chicken rice and vegies for dinner
-Treat-three squares of chocolate :/
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